In response to my last blog post, beautiful Linda posted this comment:
“Good post. Excellent points. I agree. However, I would love to read more about what this means to you personally. What does that love and grace look like through Caleb’s eyes?”
I started to reply in my comments section… and it became LONG so I figured I’d post it here.
What does that love and grace of God look like through my eyes?
It’s amazing really, I first discovered God is Love… He is unchanging… and the biggest realization is EVERYTHING about Him is unilateral…
So what does it look like to me… what does it feel like? I don’t even have words to describe what I’m discovered each day about God and The Bible…
Here’s a start:
“It’s all lies!”
Almost everything I was taught as a child, growing up in a Christian home was a lie.
This isn’t to fault my parents — they were well intentioned and did the best they could, it’s just they were lied to as well (probably by other well intentioned Christians who were lied to, etc)…
You see, Christianity today is just “Augustianity” meaning it’s all based on Augustines view of scripture… not on what the Bible actually says.
We’re in the same situation today that Christ was facing during His earthly ministry…
The traditions of man accepted over what God actually says in His word…
Christ didn’t like that the religious teachers of His day were teaching man’s traditions over what the Bible actually says…
“he is not to ‘honor his father with it. Thus you nullify the word of God for the sake of your tradition.” — Mt 15:6, Jesus replied, “And why do you break the command of God for the sake of your tradition?” — Mt. 15:3, “They worship me in vain; their teachings are but rules taught by men.” — Mt. 15:9
Like in Jesus’ time, our traditions today aren’t questioned… and are accepted as “Christian” even though they have no Biblical foundation!
Are all these traditions bad?
No, and in fact, God obviously allowed them to come into being and continue until this day, so in God’s plan they are serving a purpose.
EVERYTHING serves God’s will (even something as horrible as a terrorist attack or a serial killer… in some way… serves God’s will)(This is a truth about who God is — we don’t have to understand it or even like it… we just need to have faith in God and His will).
But I discovered some amazing things I’ve always struggled with and it blows me away how each new discovery proves that much more how God is each of those three things — all emanating from His great, unconditional Love…
SEX is a great example!
Please forgive me here as I’m about to rant!
An example of all this, is the sex ethic that is preached as “Christian morals” isn’t from scripture — it’s from Augustine and early pagan influences.
A sex ethic basically proposing a “virgin ideal”… that all lust is bad… and sex is dirty and shameful.
This thinking is so engrained in our culture that even Christians who SAY “everything to do with sex is ok… as long as it is between two married Christians” can’t actually put those words into practice. They can’t get over their own hangups, emotional baggage, and feelings of shame and guilt to enjoy great sex lives in their marriages.
But this sexual ethic never squared with what I knew of scripture (even as a young child)… and now what I’m discovering of God…
Man’s traditions on sex VS what the Bible says about sex…
Here’s something interesting: I only feel guilty… or in conflict… or ashamed about what I want to do (because I think it’s in opposition to God) when I am approaching the Christian life by trying to satisfy a “tradition of man”.
In fact, I know a teaching is really from God because I know I’ll enjoy it!
(I suppose this is why David wrote many songs about how much He delighted in following God’s ways — He had the same understanding of God and how loving, merciful and awesome He is!)
Sex is a great example of this. The traditions I was taught and told were from the Bible about sex always seemed to be TOTALLY opposed to my own nature (even though the Bible also says I have the mind of Christ…)
Like the “virgin ideal” — that being a virgin is the most holy thing there is (unless you decide to get married to ONE person for the rest of your life, ie. multiple sexual partners is a sin as well)
“But the Bible says…”
I always wondered why I was taught a “virgin ideal” yet great men of God like David and Solomon had multiple wives (and scripture said God blessed them by giving them multiple wives, He would have given them more, etc)
Let’s take David as an example…
- David was a truly holy man. He taught “the fear of the Lord,” (PS. 19:9 etc.).
- David was a “a man after God’s own heart,” (Acts 13:22).
- David “did all thing right in God’s sight except the matter with Uriah the Hittite (Bathsheba’s husband),”(1 Kg. 15:5).
- He loved God’s law, Ps. 119.
- He prayed “Search me, O God, and know my heart…. and see if there is any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way,” (Ps.139:23, 24).
- He was a repentant man, he truly sorrowed because of his sins, and he worked hard at honoring God’s law, (cf. Ps. 51,etc.)
- He is a great example of worship/praise/prayer. David wrote our prayer/worship manual, the Psalms.
- David was Israel’s greatest leader.
- Christ was “one like David.” “The Son of David,” (Matt. 21:9, etc.).
Such statements as the above place David in the very highest category of “holy men.” According to SCRIPTURE — According to GOD. I’m not just saying “David did it so it was alright”.
Scripture, GOD, said: “David “did all things right in God’s sight except the matter with Uriah the Hittite (Bathsheba’s husband),”(1 Kg. 15:5).
(Keep in mind David had 18 wives and many concubines)…
If his multiple sexual partners was wrong (as current church teaching would have you believe) then God would of said “… except for the matter with Uriah the Hittite AND being an avid polygamist and concubinist because I your God intended monogamous marriage to be the only right place for sex for Christians”
God blesses multiple sexual partners?
What do we find instead of that? God BLESSING David’s multiple sexual relationships!
Through the prophet Nathan, God affirmed that He was the actual source of all David’s women. God said He would have given more if David wanted them, (2 Sam. 12:8) (instead of stealing another man’s wife).
God was willing for David and other men to have sexual relationships with many women. Rather than viewing polygamy and concubinage as a sin or even relegating it to “least desirable” status, God’s blessing of David with many wives and concubines proves that God had no such view of monogamy as does the church and virtually all of Western culture today.
Why would I bring up such a “touchy” (pun intended!) subject?
Simply because it’s one of the strongest examples of how a “tradition of man” handed down from a man name Augustine who had serious mommy issues (and thus SERIOUS guilt, shame and feelings of sin over sex) has been so ingrained into our Christian culture…
… that it causes us to feel guilty, ashamed, sinful, bad, wretched… all over something that God created for us to enjoy to the fullest!
It’s discoveries like these that just blow my mind away — when I get a glimpse of just how LOVING and amazing my “Abba” is!
(And to be a bit crass: let’s face it — more people call out to God in the bedroom than anywhere else — so it’s a shame God isn’t fully praised, worshiped, and thanked for His many blessings there by Christians!)
My old view of God…
Before I had this idea of God (taught to me by my parents, church, etc which I just ASSUMED was right and never dug into scripture to discover for myself):
God is an angry old man in the sky who created the entire earth full of really fun and amazing things to do. He also created humans with a core desire to be happy and want to experience everything in the earth that was fun and amazing. Then for His own sick enjoyment, He created a set of laws that all his little humans have to live by… and the only way to make Him happy is for you to be unhappy, not have any fun, not enjoy any of His amazing creations, etc… Oh and He’s just waiting for you to screw up so He can say “Ha! I knew you’d fail!” and He wants you to always feel guilty and ashamed because you were born a sinner and you’ll never be anything but that!
To say, “life sucked as a Christian then” would be a gross understatement!
My new view of God…
Then I heard other viewpoints… dug into scriptures myself and considered “hey, maybe they were well intentioned but just wrong… they are just humans after all?”
So that’s what I did, and here’s how I view God now…
God IS Love. He created the earth out of love and filled it with the most fun and amazing things an infinite being who IS love could create. Sunsets, landscapes and creations that bring a tear to even a manly man’s heart because they’re so beautiful. Then He created me and the rest of us humans just so He could show His love to us… and love us daily… and gave us this whole earth to “be fruitful and multiply!” in. Set of rules? Nah. Love is enough. He decided He’d put His very life, His very love, into our hearts through Christ because He knew that’s all we would ever need to guide us in any circumstance. He even wants to do the hard things in life for us… take care of us… and love the lovable and unlovable through us in ways we could never do ourselves. When is life hard? Only when we resist this great love
I couldn’t help but put a smiley face on the end of that one because I can’t help but smile when I think of God
There, I did it again!
Life is harmonious and full of love now!
Now, I’m in complete harmony with God, it’s a dance of love with me thanking Him every day for what He has done… is doing.. and will do.
Whenever I consciously realize I’m not in this harmony, this loving surrender, I step back and surrender whatever it is that’s getting in the way of this beautiful relationship…
Like when something happens that I would of viewed before as “bad” or a “mistake” I simply go… “Ok God, you must have needed it to happen this way — thanks!” and I move along.
I have NO regrets… no “coulda, shoulda, woulda”… all because I know my loving Abba is in control
It’s like there’s no attachment to my ego, flesh, etc… I have no fear of death… I just see His hand in every mundane detail in my life… and I can just talk with Him and bask in the greatness of who He is and be awed by it…
Occasionally, I am taken away from this awe state when I have to attend to the daily details of living, but I’m learning more and more each day how to remain in those states even as I live and do “normal life” stuff.
I fight for words to describe it
It’s really a blissed out feeling when it’s like this, not unlike the high point of an orgasm or the “sweet spot” of just enough alcohol to hit that feeling of “euphoria” (I hate to use such temporal states to describe it, but there’s nothing much else that fits!)
Every day is a new journey… a “mini-life” where I’m discovering God more and more… trusting and anticipating like a Child who KNOWS without a doubt his father loves him… knows what’s best for him… and has some awesome presents in store for him.
So yeah, that’s about the best I can do to describe what God looks like through my eyes right now, thank you for asking Linda, it feels good just to write this!
With Love
Caleb